Today I was thinking and realized that though I may strongly dislike someone, there are OTHER people who love that person. Not sure why that is strange to me.

I am thankful for my family and my friends at my home church. At school I don't talk much, and when I come home it shows because I always start losing my voice after. I want all my friends to come to umasssss :)))) but sometimes I feel selfish because I know they can aim so much higher. But they should still come. Because it is cheap.

I didn't get the internship at Deloitte. But...I have an interview with PWC! and maybe E&Y.

Last night I dreamed that everything that's been making my head spin for the past month was suddenly fixed with just two little emails. I remember being really happy when I read those emails in my dream. I woke up feeling better, but then realized nothing was real.

and here I sit where disappointment and regret collide

I don't open up easily, don't readily give up my heart or put that much hope into one person. I did for the second time in my life and..I got no response. I am confused; I thought we got along well. I'd rather have it turn out badly than be stuck here not knowing what they're thinking.