Lent

So I broke my shopping ban today and yeah I feel pretty guilty about it. First of all it was a lot of money for only one item...and then someone reminded me that it was Holy Week this week. And that even though I got free shipping and free returns........Jesus' gift was free too. And that is so much more valuable than getting 10 dollars off for shipping.

I feel lame.

.............

I've been thinking a lot of things lately, and retreat really confirmed all of these thoughts, that they are biblical and true. So some things that I need to transform are:

1. How I interact with people. Making friends is a long process for me and it shouldn't be that way. Although it is slightly easier with people younger than I am (sometimes I think this stems from the guilt I feel for not being a better big sister to my siblings, especially my brother, when I was younger. Is this why I get along better with younger guys? No idea. Maybe). I'd also like to form more lasting relationships with people in my accounting classes, since I have a total of one non-Christian friend.

2. How willing I am to make mistakes. This is why I don't talk a lot. I can't say anything wrong if I don't say anything at all. But being willing to make mistakes and be vulnerable is how you make friends.

3. Remembering that hospitality is not just inviting a stranger to your home (ie. to eat dinner at dc, or to church), it's inviting a stranger into your life and your heart. This is something I can't even do with many of my friends here so this is a biggie!

Actually all of those were pretty related. Maybe they didn't need to be numbered...

All of these things I am writing on this blog are things I should be able to tell people in person so. My goal this year is to write on this blog less and talk to real people more.

If only we'd stop trying to be happy we could have a pretty good time. 

-Edith Wharton

still I see no changes, can't a brother (sister) get a little peace,

It's war on the streets & the war in the Middle East...

A lot of things have been on my mind lately, and there are so many things I want to change about my life. I can feel myself deteriorating as we speak. So one change I have made is...8 minute ab workout every night!! Well it is only the second day, but since my roommates are also doing it, we can be accountable hehe. And I think it is true, exercise really does make you happier.

can't stand your picture on my wall

I'm finally able to admit that we are no longer friends.

Although our friendship barely lasted a week.

So were we ever really friends at all?