Around this time last year, Damon told me I'm the type of person who would thrive at college. After a whole year away, I can finally ask myself: am I thriving??
I haven't changed - I feel exactly the same.
I haven't grown (physically, mentally, or spiritually - but maybe emotionally).
I haven't had more fun than i had in high school.
So no, I'm not thriving. But maybe it takes more than one year.
I looked up my old friends from the smart-kid camp I went to in 7th and 8th grade, and they are ALL at Harvard. Or MIT. Weird, that I used to be destined for similar greatness. I don't think I was ever smart/hard-working/competitive enough to make it though. I'm content with being mediocre. How horrible!
Two years ago Becca told me I should stop playing those games that LYF girls play. I disagreed with her - when did I EVER play all those church games, flirting through giving boys spiritual advice, caring about what people thought, whatever? But today I realized I PLAY GAMES. I don't do it the way everyone else does, but I do it. What a terrible revelation.
I can't wait until my internship starts. I think too much in this room.
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