Sometimes I think college is not amazing for me because I'm destined to peak later in the future...I always feel sorry for people who look back on high school, miss it, and think that it was the time of their lives. As if the rest of their lives will only go downhill after that!

The danger of this belief is that I'm not good at forming deep relationships. I truly believe that I'll finally feel fulfilled (or as fulfilled as I can be on earth) when I'm married and have kids and a best friend. Right now I'm just waiting for my future husband.

OK, I admit it. I just want a boyfriend. Hopefully only one, because I'll get married to him.

I don't date for fun, but even counselors at church have told me I should try it. I guess I'm too uptight. Sorry, I only date for keeps? That was my policy for most of my life and I NEVER thought about dating for fun, but maybe that's only because I've never gotten close enough to any boy and wanted to date him at the same time. There's some people I think are interesting but I don't know them well enough to say anything for sure. Story of my life.