i did not accomplish any of my goals this past week.

retreat this weekend was good maybe kinda. to be honest, i can't really remember anything from the talks/discussions, except the one about college, and when we talked about idols. comfort is my idol. i like cozy blankets, comfort food, not exercising, lying on my bed, not going outside, sitting on soft sofas, comfy clothes, avoiding emotional pain, not talking to new people, etc. i am VERY reluctant to stop idolizing because that would be uncomfortable.

something i want every time i go on retreat is a nice long talk, but this inevitably never happens. i have problems opening up to people, and unfortunately, i like spending time alone. i think i spent more time working on the majestic moose puzzle we found in the closet than talking to people. i even worked on it while we were playing mafia, but everyone thought it was a clever trick to make myself seem disinterested in the game and therefore not mafia, because that round i really WAS mafia. too bad i just really wanted to finish the puzzle.

today i went to the sun's house because their mom is really stressed over their move to california, so my mom volunteered me to help pack/clean. mrs sun wasn't home when i went though, and it was awkward because the sons didn't know i was even coming. all i did was scrub their kitchen island and put wood oil on some shelves, but apparently everyone works harder when i'm there. GOTTA IMPRESS THE LADIES. she wants me to come again tomorrow.