As much as I would like a significant other..it's hard to imagine someone loving me considering how flawed I am, what kind of a girlfriend I would/could be. If he knew how manipulative I sometimes am, how sinful, he would not love me. This is why I am drawn to f-ed up boys. Although in reality I really would rather date someone who is better than me, who can teach me, watch out for me, protect me.

He (the unknown one in the future) will make me a better person. But right now I am not sure I know anyone I want to be better for.