How can I date or even contemplate liking someone when I know that I can't? Maybe I could be a good girlfriend, one who isn't jealous or paranoid, but I know for sure that it would take away and distract from my already not so strong relationship with God. It is not ok that I can spend so much time and energy thinking and stressing about this boy when I struggle with reading even two chapters in the Bible a day, or when I fall asleep not even halfway during my nightly prayers. We are not dating. And I doubt we ever will. This is the real reason I need to stop listening to We Belong Together. Because we DON'T. God must come first.

On a happier note..my brother is going to college! He's going to visit in two weekends. So proud of him! He has come a long way from wanting to graduate high school and then just forming a band. Well he still wants to form a band..but he has realized that getting a degree in business would probably be helpful. Also, five of the senior guys from my home church are coming to visit and go to open house this Friday. One is coming because he wants to skip school...but the other four are coming because they might actually go to school here!!! Yayyy :) Super excited.